The lead custodian at the building I work at dropped by my office today. She said that her and some of the others working in the building saw me walking to my car “looking very pregnant” the other day. She said they are going to be putting out a cone in one of the parking spots close to the building. That way I don’t have to walk as far.
Early Christmas present to me! I was so thankful for this. Especially once it starts to get cold.
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
The Winter of the Orange
This Summer all I wanted to eat was fresh tomatoes. Not from the store, mind you, they had to come from people’s gardens. One night for dinner I ate 8 tomatoes with salt. It was awesome. The Summer of the Tomato has passed.
Now on to the winter of the orange. I have eaten 2 oranges today, and I will probably eat a few more before the end of the night. I like orange juice, but not as much as I like just a plain old orange.
Want to know what to get me for Christmas, or maybe even a baby shower? A box of oranges or clementines.
Now on to the winter of the orange. I have eaten 2 oranges today, and I will probably eat a few more before the end of the night. I like orange juice, but not as much as I like just a plain old orange.
Want to know what to get me for Christmas, or maybe even a baby shower? A box of oranges or clementines.
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
About Being a Mother
My perspective on what kind of mother I’d be has changed a lot since I was a little girl. I never was the type of girl that instantly replied “mother” when asked what I wanted to be when I grew up. I always said things like, teacher, or writer, or for most of my life, lawyer.
When I was in high school, I determined that I didn’t want to be a wife and mother, and I’d much rather be a politician. Part of me felt that way, but mostly I was making up for some insecurities I felt about just not being good enough for that lifestyle.
When I got to college and starting dating seriously, I realized that the mother dream was something I really did want. More than a career, or even heaps of degrees and education. When I got married I had dreams of staying home to raise a family.
Now that I’m getting close to actually having a family, things have changed a little. I don’t know when I’ll get to stay home with my family, or if I ever will. Daniel’s medical condition combined with his choice of career makes it difficult to forsee when I won’t need to work in order to keep current health insurance.
At first, I really struggled with this. I had grown up thinking that it just wasn’t possible to raise a family properly if the mom wasn’t home. Now I’m going to be one of those moms that just isn’t there all the time. Daniel and I seem to have worked out an arrangement where he will be home most of the time, while taking a few mornings a week for school. I am grateful that at least one of us will be able to be home with the baby all the time, but at the same time, I feel guilty because it’s not me.
I have a lot of fears about being a working mom. I want to breastfeed, but I know it’s difficult to keep a good supply when you are working full-time and having to pump most of the time. But, my biggest concerns are about the attachment I’ll have to my daughter. Will she know that I’m her mom? How many milestones will I miss out on? Will she think that I don’t love her as much as other moms who get to stay home all the time?
I am sure that most of these fears I have will be resolved once the baby is here and we’ve worked out a routine. And, I know that everything will work itself out, even if the situation isn’t ideal.
When I was in high school, I determined that I didn’t want to be a wife and mother, and I’d much rather be a politician. Part of me felt that way, but mostly I was making up for some insecurities I felt about just not being good enough for that lifestyle.
When I got to college and starting dating seriously, I realized that the mother dream was something I really did want. More than a career, or even heaps of degrees and education. When I got married I had dreams of staying home to raise a family.
Now that I’m getting close to actually having a family, things have changed a little. I don’t know when I’ll get to stay home with my family, or if I ever will. Daniel’s medical condition combined with his choice of career makes it difficult to forsee when I won’t need to work in order to keep current health insurance.
At first, I really struggled with this. I had grown up thinking that it just wasn’t possible to raise a family properly if the mom wasn’t home. Now I’m going to be one of those moms that just isn’t there all the time. Daniel and I seem to have worked out an arrangement where he will be home most of the time, while taking a few mornings a week for school. I am grateful that at least one of us will be able to be home with the baby all the time, but at the same time, I feel guilty because it’s not me.
I have a lot of fears about being a working mom. I want to breastfeed, but I know it’s difficult to keep a good supply when you are working full-time and having to pump most of the time. But, my biggest concerns are about the attachment I’ll have to my daughter. Will she know that I’m her mom? How many milestones will I miss out on? Will she think that I don’t love her as much as other moms who get to stay home all the time?
I am sure that most of these fears I have will be resolved once the baby is here and we’ve worked out a routine. And, I know that everything will work itself out, even if the situation isn’t ideal.
Friday, October 30, 2009
23 Weeks
I’ve only got two more weeks until the magical 25 weeks. That’s when the baby will have a good chance of survival outside the womb.
I’m feeling pretty good. My pelvis pain has subsided significantly, and the morning sickness is gone. I still throw up every once in awhile for no apparent reason, but I don’t have the nausea anymore.
Last week I got some fantastic deals at a consignment sale in Spanish Fork. Since I’m returning to work, I won’t be able to breastfeed like I’d really like to. But, I got a fantastic electric breastpump for $100. I really want to try pumping for as long as I can.
I also got a baby tub for $1, a Baby Bjorn carrier for $10, and a little play floor gym thingy for $7. It was definitely worth my while to go.
Daniel still hasn’t felt Abigail kick. There is this strange phenomenon where she’ll be kicking up a storm and then as soon as he puts his hand on to feel, she stops.
I’m feeling pretty good. My pelvis pain has subsided significantly, and the morning sickness is gone. I still throw up every once in awhile for no apparent reason, but I don’t have the nausea anymore.
Last week I got some fantastic deals at a consignment sale in Spanish Fork. Since I’m returning to work, I won’t be able to breastfeed like I’d really like to. But, I got a fantastic electric breastpump for $100. I really want to try pumping for as long as I can.
I also got a baby tub for $1, a Baby Bjorn carrier for $10, and a little play floor gym thingy for $7. It was definitely worth my while to go.
Daniel still hasn’t felt Abigail kick. There is this strange phenomenon where she’ll be kicking up a storm and then as soon as he puts his hand on to feel, she stops.
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
22 Week Ultrasound
I had my 22 week ultrasound this morning. I’ve got some cool pictures, and It’s really fun to see how much she’s grown over the last 6 weeks. I’ll scan them and put them up later. But, basically, she’s measuring totally normal, and she’s definitely still a girl.
Also... this weekend my sisters and I finished a valance for baby’s room, and some pillows. I haven’t decided if I’m going to put up pictures yet or if I should wait until the room is totally done. I will leave it to your discretion. If you’re dying to see pictures, let me know. If not, then I’ll just wait until the whole nursery is done.
Also... this weekend my sisters and I finished a valance for baby’s room, and some pillows. I haven’t decided if I’m going to put up pictures yet or if I should wait until the room is totally done. I will leave it to your discretion. If you’re dying to see pictures, let me know. If not, then I’ll just wait until the whole nursery is done.
Monday, October 12, 2009
Grandchildren, Great-Grandchildren, and Firsts
Abigail is pretty lucky, she gets to be the first at a lot of things.
She is going to be our first baby and our first girl. (As a first myself, I have to say that having girls first is the best).
She is going to be my parents’ first grandchild and granddaughter. Still not so sure how they feel about it. (I think my mom thinks she’s too young to be a grandma, whatever). Daniel’s parents have 10 grandchildren. (I think... I can’t really remember off the top of my head, and it’s too late to actually count). However, there hasn’t been a girl in a few years.
She will be my grandmother’s first great-granddaughter. There are already two great-grandsons.
And, I read that the baby can probably hear my voice now. I’ve started reading “Great Expectations” to her at nights when she’s most active. I thought about reading small books like Dr. Seuss or something. But, then I realized that she wasn’t going to understand anything I read, so I may as well attempt to infuse some culture. And, maybe she’ll understand young just how good her life is.
She is going to be our first baby and our first girl. (As a first myself, I have to say that having girls first is the best).
She is going to be my parents’ first grandchild and granddaughter. Still not so sure how they feel about it. (I think my mom thinks she’s too young to be a grandma, whatever). Daniel’s parents have 10 grandchildren. (I think... I can’t really remember off the top of my head, and it’s too late to actually count). However, there hasn’t been a girl in a few years.
She will be my grandmother’s first great-granddaughter. There are already two great-grandsons.
And, I read that the baby can probably hear my voice now. I’ve started reading “Great Expectations” to her at nights when she’s most active. I thought about reading small books like Dr. Seuss or something. But, then I realized that she wasn’t going to understand anything I read, so I may as well attempt to infuse some culture. And, maybe she’ll understand young just how good her life is.
Sunday, October 11, 2009
Exciting Projects
Because I’m lucky enough to work for the Federal Government, I get Monday off for Columbus Day.
I’m working on a couple projects for Abigail’s room. I spent all last week being nervous about having nothing done for her room. (Not that she cares at all). Yesterday, I spent the afternoon painting furniture. It looks terrible. I was only able to get the first coat on yesterday, so I’ve got to do more on Monday.
I also ordered the cute polka dot fabric online yesterday. I just took the plunge and did it. I spent all day yesterday at fabric stores looking for something like it, and I couldn’t find anything. So, hopefully I get it in the next week or two so I can start buying other things to match it.
I’m working on a couple projects for Abigail’s room. I spent all last week being nervous about having nothing done for her room. (Not that she cares at all). Yesterday, I spent the afternoon painting furniture. It looks terrible. I was only able to get the first coat on yesterday, so I’ve got to do more on Monday.
I also ordered the cute polka dot fabric online yesterday. I just took the plunge and did it. I spent all day yesterday at fabric stores looking for something like it, and I couldn’t find anything. So, hopefully I get it in the next week or two so I can start buying other things to match it.
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